Two choices

Bismillah..

Assalamualaikum and good morning everyone :)

Yesterday, I slept at 3 am. My family and I stopped at my aunt’s house first from our journey. We’re rushing back from Kuala Berang because we wanna watch football. Not EPL but AFF Suzuki Cup, Malaysia versus Thailand. But unfortunately, we stuck in traffic jam and it was raining and there were so many lorry and trailers on the road. It was a bad situation so my dad needs to be more careful.

Alhamdulillah, we arrived home safely and the match was draw.

However, that’s not what I wanna share with you this morning. I woke up this morning with grateful. Alhamdulillah, I am alive. Do you ever think that you might not wake up for tomorrow morning before you sleep?

As a muslim, to remember about our death is necessary. Because we will think about our sins, our fault, about what we said today, yesterday, about our past, about our family and our friends. There are too many thing to think about.

I admit, the death news about somebody in which my schoolmate who also in the same university with me gave an impact on me. He was somebody who did not really close with me but at the same time, we didn’t have a good relationship as we’re arguing about something before.

Well, the important thing is, his death make me realize more that every second we only have 50 % chance to live. Because the other 50% is to died.

We must always prepare for death, either we as the person who gonna die or we as the person who gonna face somebody gone. I admit it didn’t easy.

I was facing my good friend died 2 years ago. I was in shocked. He was my senior is school and 2 weeks before his death , he came to school but I didn’t meet him. I also didn’t contact him for a long time. That day, I was at home. I woke up in the morning, chatting with my friend in facebook, without knowing that he was currently lying on operation’s bed. Till I arrived at my hostel, I met my friend, Thing. She asked me, ‘Is L died?’ and I was wondering which L? I thought it was L from our batch, but then she replied ‘ L who played squash’ . 

SILENT

I hardly smiled and I said, I didn’t know anything and she started to feel if she was wrong. At that time, I was running to my dorm. Took out my phone and sent a message to L number and a few friends .

When, I got replied about the news was correct, my eyes immediately could not stop crying. It was hard to believe he was gone. He was like a brother to me and we’re having a good time. Some of my best memories in school was with him.

But, Allah loves him more. He will remain in our memories as a good friend and a good coach. And teachers always remember him as a nice and good student.

I wanna be like him. Harimau mati meninggalkan belang, manusia mati meninggalkan nama. Alhamdulillah, Dia pergi meninggalkan nama yang baik bersama kami.

Thus, everytime we must always prepare. My murabbi once said that ‘taubat’ is something that we should always ask. Because sometime we never noticed that we did a mistake. And Ustazah Noor laila said, taubat untuk menyucikan jiwa. Furthermore, nabi Muhammad saw ask forgiveness from Allah about 99 times per day, so I think we as an ordinary person should do more that him. 

Saya sedar saya selalu lalai, alpa, leka, lupa. Tapi saya kena selalu ingat yang kita perlu sentiasa berusaha menjadi lebih baik. Setiap kali jatuh, perlu bangun sebab jatuh tidak bererti gagal tetapi jatuh dan tidak bangun bangun bererti mengalah. Dan kita hanya ada dua pilihan, bangun atau terus jatuh.

the road not taken, do you remember this poem ?

Saya pilih untuk bangun dan bangun. Bagaimana anda?

Berubah atau jahiliah? Barjaya atau gagal ? syurga atau neraka ?

To gain a better life we need to make a choice and that choice is in our hand.

“Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum, melainkan kaum itu sendiri berusaha untuk mengubahnya “

 

Peringatan untuk diri sendiri  ‘ Hidayah bukan untuk ditunggu tetapi untuk dicari ‘

Tarik saya bila saya leka, tegur saya bila saya lupa, tolong saya untuk sama-sama kita kejar bahagia ^^

Inshallah, jannah menanti

hidup untuk mati, Mati untuk hidup selamanya,

Luqman Razali in memory ,

7 Nov 2010